I've Had A Dream...

I’ve been on maternity leave for 9 years, the last three of which I'm a mother of three children. My daily grind seems endless and it absorbs me. I am trying to be a good wife to my husband and a good mother to my children. At least, I attempt to conform to these roles. I cook and strive to keep the house tidy, not to say I’ve been burying myself into books that deal with child’s psychology in order to become a so-called professional mum. Sometimes, I even feel like I'm succeeding, but most of the time, I feel overwhelmed with the daily chores, and my efforts to become a better version of myself seem futile. No matter how hard I try, I can't always communicate with my children relying on all the tips given in the books/tactics provided by the authors of the books., possibly because I’m a human being and I feel some situations differ from what the books suggest. In the modern world, we live under the influence of stereotypes shaped by advertising and social networks that are trying to convince us - nothing can change with the birth of a child, whose life fits so easily into a mother's one. Society expects us to conform to this stereotype, and we strive to do so. But in fact mums get tired, and there is little time to rest. The truth is I’m so exhausted that I have no desire to fit in this demanding stereotype. All I want is to live a life in which my feelings, interests and goals matter. And at some point, I have a dream…