Pieces of Me

My internal timeline is non-linear, woven by fragmented memories of immense joy intertwined with medical traumas. Everyday facts are difficult to retain, as they lack the emotion needed to anchor me in the present moment. I recall the sound the gravel made underfoot as my waters broke, the sterile cold of intravenous medication entering my bloodstream, coupled with the clinical smell of hospitals. The hot, full-body rush of a success, the mortifying anxiety of feeling exposed. After receiving a late AuDHD diagnosis, I’ve found these fragmented pieces of me that were previously floating - detached, have fallen into place, allowing me to see my whole picture. For the first time in my life, everything makes sense, and I feel complete. Utilising medical scans to illustrate pivotal moments in time where memories have formed, the work in this series pairs intricately constructed narratives with deconstructed, damaged film. Collectively, the images intend to convey the paradox of my neurodivergent mind as I try to balance my desire to be seen with an overwhelming need to hide.